November 14, 2006

working through it

i miss my crazies...

isn't that weird? i miss them in the same way that i miss my childhood teddy.

i feel boring now. logically i know this is retarded but i feel normal and unimportant. of course, this is a warped view of my situation i suppose. i want to be normal but i so want to be loved... people loved the unexpected behavior and the "highs".

i haven't experienced the highs since starting the meds. i almost want to stop taking them. then, of course, i think about how much my life has improved since the meds.

*sigh*

i have to find my balance.

giggle-more at 11:49 PM


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